Wednesday, July 27, 7:45 am

At 6:30 this morning Mom was quite awake, and even though she couldn't move very well, she gave me a big hug (as big as can be expected) when I hugged her from all her family and friends who are praying for her. I told her that she was precious to us and that we loved her and were praying for her and that she had a big job: her job was to not fight her situation, but for now, until they got this tube out, her job is to accept her condition and accept the discomfort she may be feeling and to trust that God is walking her through all of this and that she can trust Him. I said that my vision / my prayer for her was that in her mind's eye she would see herself walking down a path with Jesus, and that she would sense that she was safe with Him, and that He knew the way and that she could trust where He was leading her ... and that even in the pain, she could sense Him carrying her and feel His strong arms under her and that she could lay her head on His shoulder and rest in Him, and see in His eyes His delight in Her, and His deep love for her, and know she is secure in Him ... knowing He has taken all our pain on Himself, that He has gone before us and experienced the pain Himself because of His great love for us ... her nods indicating she understood and agreed ...

I read her a comment from the blog. She smiled. The nurse said that she is on medication that makes it hard to remember things. Mom motioned that she wanted to write. So I got a pen and paper and told her that she should think of one word she wanted to say, and one short phrase. When she indicated she had her word, I began going through the letters until she nodded. Her word was "what" and she wanted to know what happened to her. So I reminded her of what happened. You should have seen how big her eyes got when I told her she had a heart attack. But the nurse said she'd told Mom a few times this morning, but that the meds really do a job on the memory. But she knew she lived in New Mexico and not California, so that's a good sign.

The surgeon came in and told mom she'd be going in early for the pacemaker. She just went in, so I'll put this online so you can pray.